Be Proud

It is almost March 2021 and it will be a year since this whole thing went down. While most of us are over this and exhausted (I know I am), take the time to be proud of yourself.

Be proud of the fact you made it a year, changing your whole life around to help the community around you.

Be proud of the fact that you probably accomplished more than you think! I know I did!

Be proud of the fact that you didn’t give up. You kept fighting through this whole thing. Mentally and spiritually.

Be proud of the fact that you developed new hobbies and found new ways to entertain yourself!

Be proud of the fact that you took the time to think about what really matters to you in this life.

Be proud of the fact that you did your best to make it through it!

Be proud of the fact that you are awesome, you are doing great, and there is hopefully light at the end of the tunnel.

Everyone is in the Same Boat

If you follow this blog, you know this blog was mostly about music. Well guess what COVID-19 happened and it’s STILL happening. It’s 12 days in 2021 and I’m already mentally exhausted. I’m exhausted about what’s going on in the world. I’m exhausted about my career and after 10 years of working towards it, my career just disappeared.

I’m tired of the news and all the negativity. I’m tired of the peoples’ flakiness because let’s be honest, we are all struggling. We are all drowning in the same water, some of us just have boats and yachts others have canoes and life vests. Just remember that when you decide to play the “woe is me” card.

I know I sound so mean, rereading what I typed, it can sound really harsh. I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again, I’m not trying to be mean, I’m trying to be honest. I have friends in music who are struggling and I have people who work in medical that are struggling. Everyone is struggling in their own way and the scary part is the ones that don’t show pain are the ones that are struggling the most.

I wish I could write about what’s going on in music and the next show/artist you should go see next. I wish I could write about a the next artist I’m going on tour with. I wish I could write about the newest production that is happening on stage. I just wish I could happen about what’s going on in the world of music and entertainment in general.

Life sucks right now. Most of our worlds have flipped upside down and inside out. It’s an adjustment for everyone. So I leave you with this. Remember the scene in Bridesmaids, where Annie’s mom says, “Honey, I think this is your rock bottom. But you know what’s good about hitting rock bottom, you can only go up.”

Annie kind of rolls her eyes because she’s heard that line before and then later in the movie Annie says, “Hey mom, remember when you said I hit rock bottom… that wasn’t it.” And like most movies it has a sappy, happy ending. I can’t guarantee your life will have a bow at the end of your ending. But I will tell you, I’ve hit rock bottom, it’s not as bad as it seems. Believe me, I got through it, and if this is your rock bottom. Just know, you will get through this.

So It Begins- 2021

It’s the year 2021… and nothing has changed. I’m not surprised and neither should you.
I’m not exactly sure why, but I’m still hesitant about this year.
Is this year really going to be better than 2020? Typing 2020 just gave me chills…

Everyone had this whole idea about the pandemic being over and life would be back to normal. Hard reality check, my job still doesn’t exist and neither do concerts at this moment.

Rumor has it, most entertainment won’t start until May 2021, but it’s just a rumor.

If I were you, I would walk into this year slowly and guarded. You did your good deeds and you have walked the fine line of not getting Covid-19. How about we count our blessings, shut up, listen to science, and actually start caring about people.

You want concerts back, care about my job and the thousands of other jobs behind the scenes. Wear a mask and don’t discredit people who are still wearing masks because this pandemic “is not over.”

This is me not trying to be mean, I am your reality check. I am one of 12 million people out of
work in live entertainment. From the bottom of my heart, start caring about people. That’s all I’m asking for in 2021.

Enough is Enough

With all the crap that’s going on in the world, I feel as though it needs to be addressed. I may lose some followers, but as hard as I fought for myself, it’s time to fight for those who can’t fight for themselves.

I’ve been an advocate for women’s rights since day one. Not only is it because I’m a “cute, tiny, blonde hair, blue-eyed” girl that gets harassed on a daily basis on and off work sites. But it’s also because it’s continuing to happen in the industry that as of right now does not exist.

But right now that doesn’t matter because  #blacklivesmatter.

I’ve worked mostly in white, male dominate industries from hospitality, music, and marketing. I’ve been the underdog because I’m a woman. But sometimes I forget about my white privilege.

Would I have been able to make it or even get certain jobs if I was a black woman?

The big elephant in the room is probably not or at least it would be much harder. Why? I have no idea? What is it that apparently people have such an issue with? Honestly, out of all the years of working, minority groups are some of the hardest working folks. They don’t mess around and they get s*it done. They are just trying to move up in the world like the rest of the underdogs.

Updated Portion:

**I would like to add I’ve been fortuate enough to work with some great companies and bosses. I will add that they are very progressive and forward-thinking, especially in music. And for that, I’m definitely grateful for all the opportunities I’ve been given. With that being said, my work situation, I’m lucky enough that because of my hard work and effort, it’s because I’m here and where I am today. Not due to anything else including my sex and race.**

Again white privilege because I can’t completely relate but I can at least understand and have empathy for those in those situations.

So exactly, as a community, country, and individuals, how do we progress and move forward? How do we make a positive change? Especially in certain worlds, where it is still dominated by white males.

My roommate who is from the Dominican Republic said it best. “You can read, donate, and protest all you want. But until white people actually check other white people for their bad behavior, it is never going to stop.”

And she is completely right, it is time white people step it up and start fighting the fight that should have happened a long time ago. If you see white people being just a plain butt plug to minority groups, literally step in and say something. Because enough is enough.

 

 

What Next?

As we approach the phases of getting back to “normal”. We still don’t know what normal will be. We also don’t know what it means for live events and concerts.

So where do we go from here? A lot of people have been wondering that and quite frankly, so have I.

I know there are a lot of artists going rogue on the streaming and social media. That’s great! Keep the music alive! I know drive-in concerts are now becoming a thing. I know there are a couple of different streaming platforms that are happening and are in the works.

Will this become the new normal? The way we experience events becomes this social distancing and separating of people?

To tell you the truth, I’ve been reading a lot about what others in the industry think. And I have to agree with a lot of them. Regardless of how the events world is going to change, it’s never going to be the same as a live show with a cheering crowd.

There I said it. Eventually, can we get there? I’m hopeful, but enjoying a loud, noisy concert with the crowd singing at the top of their lungs will never be the same.

“Times Like These”

It is day… I can’t even remember at this point. I feel like Tom Hanks in Cast Away. Time is just going and going… and going and going and going.

I think we are all going nuts. Believe me, I’m going stir crazy, but just know, that you are safe and you are going to get through this. Let me repeat that, you are safe and you will get through this.

I have to tell myself that every day, it’s hard to be positive during this time but you need to do it. It’s hard to keep people positive and uplifted as well. But I get it, sometimes it’s just really, really, hard.

I have several friends who have posted about their struggles and it’s difficult to know that so many people are having a strenuous time. And there isn’t much I can do about it. It’s a crappy feeling to know that people are hurting.

So now what? It’s getting close to most states to reopening. So what does that mean for entertainment? Unfortunately, we really don’t know. I don’t know and I’m not going to try to guess what is going to happen for sports and entertainment. I may not tour for the rest of the year, or maybe I could be back to work by summer. I highly doubt it, but who knows.

But for those of you, who are in the same position as me. I hope you are working around your house, hanging with your family, and working to keep moving forward with your life.

 

Keep Fighting My Friends

Friends,

I say this with a heavy heart. I’m so sorry about everything that is going on in the world right now. There’s no other way to put it besides the fact that this really sucks.

My industry, in particular, is struggling. We don’t even know if we will be able to work this year. There are hopes for it, but most of us aren’t sure. This is a nightmare and a very just stressful time for everyone. Anyone that has an hourly job, works in hospitality. It’s just nerve-racking not knowing when most of us will be going back to work.

But I can say for a lot of people in my life personally, we are strong, we are resilient, and we will fight back. Hopefully, come back stronger than before.

For my readers: Keep your head up, keep doing whatever you are doing that will get you through this. This is not easy for anyone. Believe me, I have my days. Some days, I’m great and happy as a clam. Some days like today, it was really hard to get out of bed. It was hard to get my energy and spirit up. As I write this, I just want to go back to bed. 

For everyone: Fight the negative feelings. Be grateful that you have a roof over your head and you have clean water to drink. Be grateful that you are alive. We in America literally have all the resources to protect ourselves. There are countries that will be wiped out from this virus.

Don’t forget that everyone is going through this, and we just have to get through this. Together. There is end in sight. There is hope.

Stay safe and please stay at home.

I know I’ve posted this song before, but I think more people to hear this more than ever.

Stay Strong My Friends

Friends,

I say from the bottom of my heart. I am so sorry.

For everyone. And what everyone is going through.

In entertainment, hospitality and anything and everything having to do with people or customer service. It really does hit us the hardest. But let’s not forget about the medical field and everyone else trying to do their normal everyday jobs. And to those who are saving lives, thank you. Everyone everywhere is just wondering what just happened to the world. We need to respect everyone’s’ life.

This is a difficult time for a lot of us. Some of us will not get unemployment. Some of us will really struggle to pay the bills. Some of us will just be extremely lost because we’ve never felt this ever before in our lives.

Take it from someone who has hit rock bottom several times, you will be OK. This is very hard to hear for a lot of people, but you will. I promise. You’ll understand why when you recover.

How do I know? Once you’ve hit rock bottom, a couple or so times, you learn how to get back up.  It seems impossible. But the people who fight will know exactly what I’m talking about.

I believe in our industry and the people who work in it. There’s a reason why we got into it in the first place. There’s a reason why we stick around. We are a community of outsider thinkers and big believers.

Do I know exactly what to do during this difficult time? Absolutely not. Everyone grieves differently. Everyone has a little slightly different way of thinking about life and living life.

What do I think you should do with your abnormal, large amount of time? Reflect on what means the most to you. Your career, family, friends, hobbies. What makes you get up in the morning? What makes you continue to grow and learn from your previous experiences? What gives you some sort of purpose?

I’ve known for a while but one purpose of mine is saving animals. I always have, but now I will make it more of a priority to volunteer with animals. Because animals have saved my life in the past, now it’s my time to help them and save them.

During this time, I hope you find purpose. Peace. Closure. I hope you spend more time with your close family and friends or at least give them a call. I hope you get a better understanding of our world and the world we are living in.

During this time, I hope you find new excitement in the world, something else to look forward to besides work. I hope you forgive those that have hurt you in the past. I hope you find new excitement in your partner or find a new partner. A new hobby perhaps. Something that drives you and a new passion to help you grow into the person you should be and can be. That I know you can be.

But I hope this rattles your world, to the point where you change for the better. Not just for you, but everyone around you.  We can do this, I know we can. Just believe in yourself and the community that surrounds you. We can fight this.

 

That Time Of Year

It’s that time of year. Christmas music flowing, my bank account is not glowing. It’s extremely dead unless you work Christmas parties/events/parades.

So it’s the time of year, where you reflect on what you want for next year and what you can improve on from the previous year.

But I hope that no matter where you are in life or what you are doing in life, that you have goals and ambitions for next year. To the be best the version of yourself.

This next year, I hope to write a lot more. I hope to travel a lot more. I hope to be a better person for my communities and I hope I can help more people this next year.

Nobody is perfect in this world, but at least we can work to be the best person we can be.

This is not a post about “counting your blessings”, I hope you get your butt to work and do the things you want to do next year!

 

Something Christmasy!

 

Only Exception

I’m really slacking on my website here!

Also, I’m all about improving myself, so if you have tips on making my site/blog better, I’m all about it!

Well besides being consistent, I know I need to get my act together on that!
As I continue to browse the internet and look up things I don’t need to buy, I can’t help but think about how selfish I am with my career.

Let me explain:
I’ve come a long way from where I started when I was 22 years old. I’m still growing and learning as I always talk about. But what I haven’t talked about is all the sacrifices I’ve had to make to get to where I am.

My aunt died last week and if there is a funeral I’m pretty sure I won’t make it because I’ll be on tour. I’ve missed several family events, due to the fact that I’m 8/10 hours away or because I was off in my own little universe or sleeping on a bus. My friends that I hold near and dear to my heart, you know who you are. I’ve missed so many little moments with you and I’m so sorry. And to the love of my life, if there is one. I’m sorry to my knight and shining armor. I haven’t spent nearly as much time as I should trying to write my fairy tale ending. I hope you are still out there, my prince charming.

I don’t regret anything. I don’t. This is how my life panned out. But going forward, I’m going to focus on those I love.