Wow! Words can’t explain what has happened to me this summer. But it’s a roller coaster!
I learned a lot about myself, my career and what I want out of life.
Here is what I learned from tours and festivals I’ve worked so far:
- I want respect. I don’t need the ground I walked to be a red carpet, I just want sugar and spice and everything nice. Meaning peoples’ personality, not things or stuff.
- I want to move up in my career. It’s one thing to have power, but it’s another to have power and to create better opportunities for your team and for yourself. But also, I just like to make life a little bit easier.
- I do like to travel for work. I’ve been to some places, I probably wouldn’t have gone had it not been for work. I’m extremely grateful for that and experience new places in the world.
- I don’t want to be an asshole. I’ve learned that just being mean to people is just petty and stupid. I’ll always be the first one to admit when I make a mistake, but don’t be a jerk about it when I admit my faults.
- I don’t ever want to be anyone else but me. I can’t help who I am. I can be really tough at times and I can be the nicest person in the world. But in the end, I am who I am. I plan on treating everyone well and equally and I want the same in return.
As the season is dwindling down, I’ve been thinking a lot about this past year and what I want for myself careerwise.
Here is what I know:
- I have way more confidence in myself then I’ve ever have before.
- I have developed skill sets and communication skills on a different and higher level that I didn’t think was possible.
- I know I can do any job and do it well.
- As long as I put my mind to it, I will succeed.
This self-power I’ve developed has come a long way for me. Because the only thing I have is the power to believe in myself. And I hope as a reader and follower you will too.
I don’t know where it came from, but I do know, I need it for my career and my self-worth.
I think it’s important to reflect on what your goals are and what you want to accomplish in the next years. I do have some personal goals of mine but overall, my main focus for next year is to be part of the few woman people look up to in Nashville.
I understand for a lot of people, it’s hard to pick up your life and move for something you want. Whether it’s nice weather or a job, it’s hard if you are close to your family and friends. Because what beats something that has been there for your whole life.But one of the best things I did for myself, is moving away. I learned a lot about myself and I pushed myself to a lot of limits… A lot of limits.
It started when I moved to Australia, I had to learn to be extremely independent and aware of my surroundings. Unfortunately, in Nashville, I’ve had a lot of mishaps happen while I was here. And it’s made me learn how to grow, adapt, and change to imperfect scenarios.
So if you are reading my blog and find myself somewhat helpful, read the link below and pick the best city for you in the music industry. The only thing I find “wrong” with this article is they forgot New Orleans and Miami. While they aren’t necessarily conventional music cities, you shouldn’t discredit them. I have a handful of friends that live in New Orleans.
So what has happened to me in the past month.
I have gone home for a wedding, gone home for Thanksgiving, worked over 7o hours per week for the last two months, and now I’m going home for Christmas… and yet, I still haven’t landed the gig that I’ve been looking for.
But I guess that has been put on hold for bit because my grandmother passed away on my birthday. And I honestly don’t care that it was on my birthday, I’m more upset with myself that I didn’t give her the proper goodbye. Had I known, the last time I was going to see her was in the hospital, I would have told her how special she is and how much she means to me. I probably wrote her a song had I known she wasn’t going to make it.
So this blog post is dedicated to my amazing grandmother.Who has taught me to be a strong, independent woman and to go after my dreams. Because of her passing, I’m going to to work as hard as I can to make sure I make her proud.
I love you grandma, always have always will.