Stay Strong My Friends

Friends,

I say from the bottom of my heart. I am so sorry.

For everyone. And what everyone is going through.

In entertainment, hospitality and anything and everything having to do with people or customer service. It really does hit us the hardest. But let’s not forget about the medical field and everyone else trying to do their normal everyday jobs. And to those who are saving lives, thank you. Everyone everywhere is just wondering what just happened to the world. We need to respect everyone’s’ life.

This is a difficult time for a lot of us. Some of us will not get unemployment. Some of us will really struggle to pay the bills. Some of us will just be extremely lost because we’ve never felt this ever before in our lives.

Take it from someone who has hit rock bottom several times, you will be OK. This is very hard to hear for a lot of people, but you will. I promise. You’ll understand why when you recover.

How do I know? Once you’ve hit rock bottom, a couple or so times, you learn how to get back up.  It seems impossible. But the people who fight will know exactly what I’m talking about.

I believe in our industry and the people who work in it. There’s a reason why we got into it in the first place. There’s a reason why we stick around. We are a community of outsider thinkers and big believers.

Do I know exactly what to do during this difficult time? Absolutely not. Everyone grieves differently. Everyone has a little slightly different way of thinking about life and living life.

What do I think you should do with your abnormal, large amount of time? Reflect on what means the most to you. Your career, family, friends, hobbies. What makes you get up in the morning? What makes you continue to grow and learn from your previous experiences? What gives you some sort of purpose?

I’ve known for a while but one purpose of mine is saving animals. I always have, but now I will make it more of a priority to volunteer with animals. Because animals have saved my life in the past, now it’s my time to help them and save them.

During this time, I hope you find purpose. Peace. Closure. I hope you spend more time with your close family and friends or at least give them a call. I hope you get a better understanding of our world and the world we are living in.

During this time, I hope you find new excitement in the world, something else to look forward to besides work. I hope you forgive those that have hurt you in the past. I hope you find new excitement in your partner or find a new partner. A new hobby perhaps. Something that drives you and a new passion to help you grow into the person you should be and can be. That I know you can be.

But I hope this rattles your world, to the point where you change for the better. Not just for you, but everyone around you.  We can do this, I know we can. Just believe in yourself and the community that surrounds you. We can fight this.

 

Only Exception

I’m really slacking on my website here!

Also, I’m all about improving myself, so if you have tips on making my site/blog better, I’m all about it!

Well besides being consistent, I know I need to get my act together on that!
As I continue to browse the internet and look up things I don’t need to buy, I can’t help but think about how selfish I am with my career.

Let me explain:
I’ve come a long way from where I started when I was 22 years old. I’m still growing and learning as I always talk about. But what I haven’t talked about is all the sacrifices I’ve had to make to get to where I am.

My aunt died last week and if there is a funeral I’m pretty sure I won’t make it because I’ll be on tour. I’ve missed several family events, due to the fact that I’m 8/10 hours away or because I was off in my own little universe or sleeping on a bus. My friends that I hold near and dear to my heart, you know who you are. I’ve missed so many little moments with you and I’m so sorry. And to the love of my life, if there is one. I’m sorry to my knight and shining armor. I haven’t spent nearly as much time as I should trying to write my fairy tale ending. I hope you are still out there, my prince charming.

I don’t regret anything. I don’t. This is how my life panned out. But going forward, I’m going to focus on those I love.

 

 

Artists

Hello from Casper, Wyoming. Not much to do here since there is one Uber in town and we are actually 20 minutes outside of Casper. Either way, happy for a day off.

Before this last run in South Dakota, I decided to fly out early to stay at my grandma’s house for a couple of days. It was probably one of the best decisions I’ve made in a while.

Just to give you an idea of my grandma’s house:

She lives out in the middle of woods in Custer, South Dakota. There are no city streets and you can see every star in the sky at night. It is truly a beautiful experience. Sometimes I think I’m in a scary movie it is so remote.

My grandma died on my birthday three and a half years ago. She was a great person and a talented artist. My grandma went to school for seven years with her masters in art education. She painted very well and she drew like it was real life figures. I cried when I walked into her house and all the paintings were still up. It is what she would have wanted. She didn’t paint for anyone else besides herself.

I know I write mostly about music artists, but I think it’s important to address all the different kinds of artists in the world. My grandma died a true artist and she was one of the best ones who went undiscovered.

Rest in Peace Grandma

 

 

To My Grandma

So what has happened to me in the past month.

I have gone home for a wedding, gone home for Thanksgiving, worked over 7o hours per week for the last two months, and now I’m going home for Christmas… and yet, I still haven’t landed the gig that I’ve been looking for.

But I guess that has been put on hold for bit because my grandmother passed away on my birthday. And I honestly don’t care that it was on my birthday, I’m more upset with myself that I didn’t give her the proper goodbye. Had I known,  the last time I was going to see her was in the hospital, I would have told her how special she is and how much she means to me. I probably wrote her a song had I known she wasn’t going to make it.

So this blog post is dedicated to my amazing grandmother.Who has taught me to be a strong, independent woman and to go after my dreams. Because of her passing, I’m going to to work as hard as I can to make sure I make her proud.

I love you grandma, always have always will.