It is day… I can’t even remember at this point. I feel like Tom Hanks in Cast Away. Time is just going and going… and going and going and going.
I think we are all going nuts. Believe me, I’m going stir crazy, but just know, that you are safe and you are going to get through this. Let me repeat that, you are safe and you will get through this.
I have to tell myself that every day, it’s hard to be positive during this time but you need to do it. It’s hard to keep people positive and uplifted as well. But I get it, sometimes it’s just really, really, hard.
I have several friends who have posted about their struggles and it’s difficult to know that so many people are having a strenuous time. And there isn’t much I can do about it. It’s a crappy feeling to know that people are hurting.
So now what? It’s getting close to most states to reopening. So what does that mean for entertainment? Unfortunately, we really don’t know. I don’t know and I’m not going to try to guess what is going to happen for sports and entertainment. I may not tour for the rest of the year, or maybe I could be back to work by summer. I highly doubt it, but who knows.
But for those of you, who are in the same position as me. I hope you are working around your house, hanging with your family, and working to keep moving forward with your life.
I say this with a heavy heart. I’m so sorry about everything that is going on in the world right now. There’s no other way to put it besides the fact that this really sucks.
My industry, in particular, is struggling. We don’t even know if we will be able to work this year. There are hopes for it, but most of us aren’t sure. This is a nightmare and a very just stressful time for everyone. Anyone that has an hourly job, works in hospitality. It’s just nerve-racking not knowing when most of us will be going back to work.
But I can say for a lot of people in my life personally, we are strong, we are resilient, and we will fight back. Hopefully, come back stronger than before.
For my readers: Keep your head up, keep doing whatever you are doing that will get you through this. This is not easy for anyone. Believe me, I have my days. Some days, I’m great and happy as a clam. Some days like today, it was really hard to get out of bed. It was hard to get my energy and spirit up. As I write this, I just want to go back to bed.
For everyone: Fight the negative feelings. Be grateful that you have a roof over your head and you have clean water to drink. Be grateful that you are alive. We in America literally have all the resources to protect ourselves. There are countries that will be wiped out from this virus.
Don’t forget that everyone is going through this, and we just have to get through this. Together. There is end in sight. There is hope.
Stay safe and please stay at home.
I know I’ve posted this song before, but I think more people to hear this more than ever.
Working so much, it makes it extremely hard when I have down time. Because then it gives me time to let my mind wonder. It gives me time to reflect on my life. But mostly, it gives me time to think about my mom, dad and my dog. It’s amazing to me how some people can just pick up and go, when sometimes, they won’t go back home for months and months at a time. And it’s like they never skipped a beat.
Since I’ve been in Nashville, this is the longest stretch of time since I’ve been able to go home. And now I’m getting extremely homesick. Especially when I talk to my mom.
As I sit and text my friends on how they get over being home sick, I try to remember why I moved in the first place. How there’s more opportunity and growth that I can make in my career here versus being back home. How the weather is warmer and people are overall just more friendly here.
But I wonder if it will ever get easier? If I was really cut out for this life in the first place. Is it worth to be far away from my mom and dad and if the decisions I made were even worth it.
I’m hoping this is just the homesickness talking and it will pass. Until then, I’ll work hard every day just to get to where I need to be and where I want to be. So I can support my family just like how they have supported me.