I guess I put it all over social media so I can put the great news out on here…
I’m going back out on tour! Yay! My position is dressing room coordinator! It will be full of adventures, challenges and learning growths which I’m excited about.
Am I nervous? Absolutely. Everyone always feels the butterflies in their stomach when they start a new job. I am like everyone else, except my butterflies are completely out of the cage. And they are running wild and I can’t control them.
We go out on tour next week to the northeast. As far as I know, I’ll be out until May. If everything goes according to plan, I’ll be out with them in September.
My goal is to kick some major booty and be the best I can be on this tour. I literally said three and half years ago I would get on tour doing what I do best. My job.
Fair warning: To whoever wants to work in touring, festivals and production world; this is a very slow time of year. Very slow. Like super slow. I think paint drys faster than the months of December through February. This is a really good time to go on holidays and break away from the world.
Like it is so slow everyone is trying to find work… literally any kind of work. I think even most of the venues in Nashville are slow that’s how slow it is. But even if you have work coming in January, February, March, people are STILL looking to occupy their time.
For work right now, I’m working for a wardrobe stylist and working at a venue. I think I said that in my last post. But even then I’m still looking for work. Because I like to work. I’m a workaholic.
So right now, my focus is on this year and getting big gigs and moving my career to the next level. I highly suggest if you are in this field of work that you do the same thing.
As I climb into adulthood, I understand more and more where I stand in the industry. And as I get older, I start to understand more about stardom and what “being famous” really means.
Being famous means that you are somehow or someway famous people are associated with social media or media. And EVERYONE seems to know about EVERYTHING about your business. Whether you like it or not.
Sometimes you are famous because you are ACTUALLY good at something… other times you are not.
Either way, I read Anna Kendrick’s book about her upbringing and her world of “being famous”. She puts in best by saying:
“I still had a tar stain in the middle of my living room floor while I was on tour promoting Up in the Air.”
… You have to read the book as to why she has a tar stain in the middle of the floor but the point is, even though she was already a household name, she still didn’t have a lot of money or ties to her name yet. And I believe she was nominated for an award for that movie.
It’s a hard lesson to learn but you have to stop comparing yourself to other people. It always looks like someone is doing better than you but the truth is, we all have a tar stain in the middle of the floor.
I went to another show, yes, another show that I wasn’t working! How Fabulous!
There are still a handful of bands that I have yet to see or really want to see. Either I miss their show or just missed opportunities for shows.
One of my favorite “emo” bands is The Spill Canvas. For as long as I can remember being emo in middle school, I would listen to this band on repeat.
It was a little bit of nostalgia for me because I never saw them live before. I thought I did with Fall Out Boy a long time ago, but I’m going to say probably not.
If you don’t’ know who they are, you should check them out. Especially if you do like bands such as New Found Glory and Simple Plan. These guys are part of that era and part of a huge part of my growing up.
If you get the chance to see them, they are on tour now and tickets are priced about $12/15 dollars.
Below is a song that will forever be a classic in my heart.
I’ve briefly mentioned before, I used to write all the time. Not write as in like blog writing, but songwriting. I’m not very good at it. I get these crazy ideas, they bottle up inside me and they never go anywhere. It feels like I’m trying to say something but I can’t complete the sentence.
It sounds like the story of my life, but I understand why songwriting is such an art. There’s a beauty to it. Some people get it, some don’t.
As I’m writing this right now, I’m literally pulling my hair out because I’m trying to figure out my point.
For the first time in months, I finally picked up my keyboard. It’s currently sitting on my bed but I was finally playing for the first time in a long time.
So now where do I go from here? Do I keep it to myself? Do I let others know what I’m doing? What thing is for certain- my birthday is coming up and I feel like I’m missing something in my life.
Maybe songwriting can help me figure it out. Don’t believe me- I wrote the lyrics to the song below.
As the season is dwindling down, I’ve been thinking a lot about this past year and what I want for myself careerwise.
Here is what I know:
- I have way more confidence in myself then I’ve ever have before.
- I have developed skill sets and communication skills on a different and higher level that I didn’t think was possible.
- I know I can do any job and do it well.
- As long as I put my mind to it, I will succeed.
This self-power I’ve developed has come a long way for me. Because the only thing I have is the power to believe in myself. And I hope as a reader and follower you will too.
I don’t know where it came from, but I do know, I need it for my career and my self-worth.
I think it’s important to reflect on what your goals are and what you want to accomplish in the next years. I do have some personal goals of mine but overall, my main focus for next year is to be part of the few woman people look up to in Nashville.
I know this is going around on social media and I’m sure most of the men are wondering what it means. The “Me Too” status is representing the person AKA the woman who has been sexually assaulted or harassed. I know this happens all the time, in any industry, at any given time. It can be physical, mental or emotional and it can be the smallest comment or rape.
It happens all the time in the music industry. All day every day. That’s a fact. And I have been a personal victim of this.Yes, I’ve been a victim. I’ve been commented on my looks, my body, my sexual being, just being myself people felt the need to say or do something to me.
The saddest thing about the whole situation is that people know this is a problem and some know that they are doing it. This is an issue. And some people don’t understand, sometimes what they do or say is sexual harassment. Nobody, either way, will do anything about it. That’s a problem.
As a woman, I suggest you stand up for yourself and tell the guy off if this happens to you. Or tell someone about it. Or go to the police. Stand up for yourself.
As a man, I suggest you keep your words and hands to yourself.
I had a really good conversation last night with one of my supervisors from Milwaukee. I was telling him about the interesting ride I’ve had this year with my career and he said, “Being a dick is not going to get you anywhere in this industry.”
While I know this statement is whole, heartedly true I can attest to that statement. Because I’ve lived it multiple times. Just in life in general: If you are a jerk to people, you are not going to get very far in life. Seriously though, nobody likes a Debbie Downer or someone who is plain rude.
I guess the reason why I’m writing this is that it is relieving and reassuring to hear from someone higher up in the industry, just because you are an asshole, doesn’t mean you are going to push your way to the front.
I’ve had some awful experiences with people just being plain mean to me this year. Nothing I can do about it besides take the high road. I hope one day they do too.
It is a tragedy not only in the music but in society. I’m talking about this thing called suicide.
We work ourselves to the bone trying to enjoy this “American Dream”. We try to date, but dating isn’t quite the same as it was back in the 90’s. We try to make everyone happy, but let’s be honest, there’s always someone you can’t impress. And it takes a toll on you.
Unfortunately, suicide happens a lot in American culture. When you get to the point where you mentally can’t stand to see daylight anymore; It’s a shame that people call suicide a “selfish act”.
I feel for everyone including the fans that adored Chester Bennington. Chester was not only extremely talented, but he was in a lot of pain. And you can hear it in the music. I heard it when I first heard “Numb” for the first time on the radio.
I hope everyone sees this as a learning process. Whether they ask for help or not, it’s better to ask are you ok, because sometimes that’s all people need. And sometimes they need a little bit more, and that’s ok too.
And I’m back in Milwaukee! Again! I feel like I’m here every two months ago.
I’m happy to be at Summerfest again! This is my 6th year in production and this is also the 50th anniversary of the Milwaukee World Festival!
We have a great lineup from country to hip-hop to rock to pop. Just to name drop a few:
Dan + Shay, Girl Talk, Tegan&Sara, DNCE, Atmosphere, Frankie Ballard, Peter Frampton, Michelle Branch… there are 11 ground stages so there’s much more where that came from! For more information check out the website: http://www.summerfest.com
I think it’s a great line up and I think if you are in the 414 area code, you should definitely come along!
With that being said…
I love going to shows when I’m not working. Thanks to the radio station I used to work for, they hooked me up with tickets to go see Wilco.
Wilco had an amazing light show and a very dramatic backdrop. There were points during the show where all they did was jam. It was amazing! I highly recommend seeing them if you like a good rock show!