I’m hoping that if a little bit more time on my hands, I’ll start to write more music and playing more music. I’m in a better place where I understand what my music and writing mean to me. It’s a good thing, and my mind can be at peace.
I am not trying to take it anywhere or trying to pursue anything with it. I just really, really want to think about my music and what it means to me.
No more over analyzing or overthinking what phrases mean. Or thinking about what other people think about it.
Touring has made me realize that I was not meant to live my life as a musician. And I’m totally ok with that. Truly OK with that.
Touring has made me realize more of my strengths and weaknesses. Made me realize what I want more out of life. But I’m starting to see more and more what my purpose is in this world.
For the first time ever, I really enjoy being home for Christmas. I haven’t done much since I have been here but living in nostalgia… Is that how you use it?
Anyways, I’m really excited because my dad got me a keyboard/synthesizer and I’m bringing back my saxophone to Nashville. Needless to say, I hope I get my musicianship back and hope that things will be great next year.
As I told my parents last night, I want to do it all. I want to be able to say everything I’ve ever wanted to do, I conquered and did well at it.
Music is always one of my biggest obstacles, I’ve always been able to play and read. And I was once really, really good. But life got in the way, so I hope this time it doesn’t.
Do I need a bit of practice, sure, I’ll admit it! But at one point in time, everyone did.
I hope that everything falls into place.