Dear Ashleigh

I’ve briefly mentioned before, I used to write all the time. Not write as in like blog writing, but songwriting. I’m not very good at it. I get these crazy ideas, they bottle up inside me and they never go anywhere. It feels like I’m trying to say something but I can’t complete the sentence.

It sounds like the story of my life, but I understand why songwriting is such an art. There’s a beauty to it. Some people get it, some don’t.

As I’m writing this right now, I’m literally pulling my hair out because I’m trying to figure out my point.

For the first time in months, I finally picked up my keyboard. It’s currently sitting on my bed but I was finally playing for the first time in a long time.

So now where do I go from here? Do I keep it to myself? Do I let others know what I’m doing? What thing is for certain- my birthday is coming up and I feel like I’m missing something in my life.

Maybe songwriting can help me figure it out. Don’t believe me- I wrote the lyrics to the song below.

 

 

“Yeah Boy”

I went on my first real trip with a guy I like. I know, this is pretty new to me too.
Because who would want to hang out with me for extended periods of time… well let’s be honest, I can be pretty cool too!

We went to Arizona for warmer weather… the weather wasn’t warmer.But I enjoyed our hikes and our conversations. He’s extremely intelligent like high tech could break into your computer kind of smart.

The thing I liked about him the most, is that he is really open to the idea of me working in music. Most of the time, it scares a lot of guys away. Apparently, it makes me into this party girl.

Here’s what I’m excited about, the more I like guys like him, the better I understand sappy happy love songs. Maybe that means I can start truly writing songs again. And just become a better writer as well. I just hope this streak continues of just meeting awesome guys like him.

 

If there is such a thing as composing block…I have it

Have you ever had those times in your life, where you want to accomplish a goal, but you have no idea how to get there?

 

… That seems to be the story of my life right now.I’m trying to write one song, I can’t seem to get my thoughts together let alone come up with a good idea.

 

And for those of you who think it’s easy to write a song;sit down and write one. And see if you can do it.Because it is NOT easy. It’s probably some of the hardest tasks I’ve ever had to do in my life.Why you ask? Do you remember the days in school where you were given a assignment… and you had to follow all those requirements in order to get an A for that paper.Well imagine you have to write a song for someone else, with requirements and all… it’s makes the task 10x harder.

The worst part about it is, I have all these ideas and I have no where to go with them.I guess I’m going to be that girl, always going but never going anywhere.