Wow! Words can’t explain what has happened to me this summer. But it’s a roller coaster!
I learned a lot about myself, my career and what I want out of life.
Here is what I learned from tours and festivals I’ve worked so far:
- I want respect. I don’t need the ground I walked to be a red carpet, I just want sugar and spice and everything nice. Meaning peoples’ personality, not things or stuff.
- I want to move up in my career. It’s one thing to have power, but it’s another to have power and to create better opportunities for your team and for yourself. But also, I just like to make life a little bit easier.
- I do like to travel for work. I’ve been to some places, I probably wouldn’t have gone had it not been for work. I’m extremely grateful for that and experience new places in the world.
- I don’t want to be an asshole. I’ve learned that just being mean to people is just petty and stupid. I’ll always be the first one to admit when I make a mistake, but don’t be a jerk about it when I admit my faults.
- I don’t ever want to be anyone else but me. I can’t help who I am. I can be really tough at times and I can be the nicest person in the world. But in the end, I am who I am. I plan on treating everyone well and equally and I want the same in return.
I will say this. Getting back into the swing of touring again, is another roller coaster in itself. Trying to get the right amount of sleep, on top of remembering to eat and then, of course, remembering if you showered that day or the night before. Did I mention you still have to do your job?!
Do I think I want to do this for the rest of my life? I don’t know. It does take a special person to live on a tour bus a be a 20-year roadie. To give up your weekends completely. To live your life on the road on someone else’s schedule. To eat catering food three times a day and it may or may not be good food.
Are there perks to the job? Of course! Lots of perks. First off, you are working a show. I’ve spent PLENTY of money going to shows before I started working in the industry. Secondly, you do have time to have fun. Like I created Balloon Girl On Tour. It’s pretty much an inside joke between friends. But if you want to catch a glimpse of my adventures, feel free to follow on Instagram: @balloongirlontour
I guess I put it all over social media so I can put the great news out on here…
I’m going back out on tour! Yay! My position is dressing room coordinator! It will be full of adventures, challenges and learning growths which I’m excited about.
Am I nervous? Absolutely. Everyone always feels the butterflies in their stomach when they start a new job. I am like everyone else, except my butterflies are completely out of the cage. And they are running wild and I can’t control them.
We go out on tour next week to the northeast. As far as I know, I’ll be out until May. If everything goes according to plan, I’ll be out with them in September.
My goal is to kick some major booty and be the best I can be on this tour. I literally said three and half years ago I would get on tour doing what I do best. My job.
As the season is dwindling down, I’ve been thinking a lot about this past year and what I want for myself careerwise.
Here is what I know:
- I have way more confidence in myself then I’ve ever have before.
- I have developed skill sets and communication skills on a different and higher level that I didn’t think was possible.
- I know I can do any job and do it well.
- As long as I put my mind to it, I will succeed.
This self-power I’ve developed has come a long way for me. Because the only thing I have is the power to believe in myself. And I hope as a reader and follower you will too.
I don’t know where it came from, but I do know, I need it for my career and my self-worth.
I think it’s important to reflect on what your goals are and what you want to accomplish in the next years. I do have some personal goals of mine but overall, my main focus for next year is to be part of the few woman people look up to in Nashville.
As I get back into writing and playing music again, I always forget about how hard it is to get into the music. I guess it’s just trying to be in the moment kind of thing and I lose that moment so quickly.
That’s always been my issue growing up when I had a hard time sitting at the piano. I would get bored so easily playing scales and chords. And then I would get frustrated when I couldn’t play a song right away.
Needless to say, I wasn’t the best musician growing up because I would get bored and frustrated very, very easily.
As I get older, I realize how happy I am that I played music growing up. Because now, I’m looking for more gigs, and playing piano might be one of them.
Yes, I need a lot of work. But I think I can get my motivation and inspiration back. Hopefully,it works out, stay tuned!
I seriously hate this time of year. Sure the holidays are coming up, but there’s really nothing going on. Besides football and Halloween parties. Also, it’s starting to get cold, and there’s a reason why I moved away from the cold. The cold just sucks. No me gusta.
As things start to wind down and the holidays are coming up, what do people do in this town. That’s a good question, and here’s the answer for you. Nothing, they do nothing. There’s nothing going on. So most people right now are doing nothing. Luckily for me, I like money and money likes me, so I find things to keep me busy.
Because being busy is really important to me, I can’t just stand around. It drives me nuts! But the problem is, I like to save money too, so I’m being a loner like everyone else in Nashville.
It’s time like these, this is where you make it or break it with your sanity. This is where you figure out who’s in it for the long run and who’s going to be running out of town.
So a lot of people don’t know that I’ve written a couple of songs, some have actually been quote on quote published. But I don’t want to make a living out of that. Because I know I’m not as talented as some people I know. Let’s be honest, I’m not the best. And I know I’m not the best.
But what I am good at is understanding what it takes to be a damn good songwriter. It takes a lot of self starting, self motivation and your own creativity. Some people don’t get discovered ever and some people make it over night, it’s just the way the dice roll.
What’s great out Tin Pan South: It’s a songwriter festival dedicated to ready for this, the songwriters of Nashville! This years lineup was really strong and let me just say the lines were really, really long to get in to most venues. I actually couldn’t get into two of them.
So support those who do this for a living, literally write lyrics for a living. It’s not as easy as you think it is.
I’m so tired, I have no idea sometimes what I am doing. I forget what day of the week it is, I forget to shower sometimes, there was one day I was so tired I forgot to eat.
Why you ask, I’m putting in about 60 to 70 hours per week. This past week I put in about 80 hours. I’m pretty exhausted, but I think it’s getting me somewhere.
So, what have I been doing?
I was a PA for my friend Kyle Olson for a new reality show he’s working on. I don’t know much about TV, but it was a good experience for me. Just working on set and understanding how the TV world works puts me one step up. Thanks Kyle for the experience!
My recent PA gig was for the NAA conference with music performances in between. This gig was more of a business setting, but it was really good experience. I got more hands on experience with stage/sound/lighting concepts.
My Point: I’m working really hard in getting my career going, so much I’m almost pushing myself too hard. But I’m doing it to give my family and myself a better life. A life that I can enjoy the things I want to and give happiness to those in my life.
I was told in college, that the working world would be tough. That the best years of your life would be in high school and college? My question is why? I had an amazing time in Australia when I studied abroad, but seriously, I had no money to do anything. I felt like I had paper after paper to write. When I graduated I panicked. I had no idea what the hell I wanted to do.
Thanks to my awesome professor, who lead me to one of my first mentors, I landed my third internship working at Summerfest. The place that changed my mind about work and what work meant to me.
Since I graduated, I’ve met a lot of amazing people, been to some pretty awesome places, and experienced some of the coolest things I’ve ever experienced. So yes, I’ve been having fun, listening/ working to/with some pretty awesome music and trying to make a living.
My point: I’ve come really far in my life and I’m sure you have as well. Make sure you take a step back and remember when life sucks, it’s going to get better.
The one thing I always say in my interviews, “you’re not just applying to a place to make money, it’s a lifestyle, it’s the life you want to live and that’s why I want to work for (your company). I want my life to be about (this company).”… OK I say something along the lines of that, it’s not necessarily word for word, but when I say it I mean.
But how far do you have to go to get to what you want and how much do you have to sacrifice along the way? Long story short, I am missing a very important family event because I can’t get off of work. Needless to say, my mom was very upset with me. And I don’t blame her, because I want my life eventually to be work to live and not live to work.
My point: hopefully you’ll choose the places you work for because you want to work there. If you’re not happy, you probably need to get out.